Another one bites the dust

So, i've been wrestling in my head for a week about how to write a blog post without sounding like a girl who just got her heart broken… again.
But at this point, “it is what it is”. That's what happened. Yes… again.

The funny thing is, that this time, i was so cautious going into this relationship, that it almost never got off the ground. I was so guarded. I was so skeptical. And I was so careful with my heart, but the second i gave it away, it got broken anyway… that should surely teach me something, right?!

Mid-week last week i was preparing a “positive post” to distract me from all the sadness i was feeling. I had made plans to distract myself every minute of every day. I didn't need ANY time to think… but God works in mysterious ways and i got the flu. A brutal flu. So, i'm now on day #5 of lying in bed and neurotically thinking about every detail of the last 6 months of my relationship…

The hopeless romantic in me couldn't help but think… that maybe he'd show up at my place with flowers and NeoCitran and declare his love for me. Lol But who are we kidding?! That's not happening, so the daydreams and feverish delusions stop here!

Today, it's been like a slap in the face. Finally, after 5 days of thinking, i realize: he doesn't love me , he can't commit to me… so why hold my breath about reconciliation? God knows i've done that in the past for many others, and where'd it ever get me? Nowhere. Just more disappointed… So this time i've got to be stronger, and just accept that he's just not THAT into me, and move on.

Right now i'm feeling like, what's the point of ever trying this again? But i know, from experience, that life moves on, this won't hurt so much in a few months from now, Spring will come and new hope will arise. And the next guy who melts my icy heart, might actually be ready and love me for who i am.

Ok back to bed now…that was enough effort one day!

NYC

What happens in NYC, stays in NYC! Especially for a dirty thirty ;)

Soooo many “dirty thirty's” to come this year! How fun is that?!

Hanging out with your Ex lately?

Formspring Question: How do u feel about people still hanging out with their exes to the point where the current person in the relationship is bothered by it? ask your question here

Thanks for asking that question! It's a big issue that couples do encounter all the time. I have some personal history regarding this type of issue, so if i allowed myself i would have soooo much to say.
However, there is one simple answer for you: If the friendship with an ex is bothering the current relationship (aka causing conflict between you and your boyfriend), and you CARE about your boyfriend and want it to work out, just STOP seeing your ex!

Plain and simple. Your partner should be your #1 priority. Not the ex who either broke your heart or that you dumped! Let him go, and try not to accumulate ANOTHER ex in the process!! hehe

If you care about the person your with, the decision should be simple. As an “ex” myself, i would understand! Wouldn't you?

Ask me anything

Shop Til We Drop

I'm in Mississauga this weekend, visiting my friend Val. The 6 hour drive wasn't so bad yesterday. Lots of sun, salt on the roads, and 16 lanes of traffic through Toronto rush hour!!



But I made it and the girls weekend began!

Lots if girl talk, catching up, gossiping, pizza and wine! A great way to start a weekend!

24hrs later, we're now lying on the living room couches with our feet up; exhausted! We went shopping for 5 hours today at Square One Mall, and we shopped til we dropped!!

I spent way more than I should have, but it was so much fun! Especially at Victoria's Secret! Their Semi-Annual Sale always gets my heart pumping ;)



I'm already on my way home already tmrw. These weekends are always short and sweet. I will enjoy tonight and tmrw, then it's back to reality and to my beau, who I miss like crazy xx

Enjoy your weekends peeps, I know I am! xo
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The Online Stalker Re-Emerges

O M G guess who i get an email from last night?! Diego: My online stalker!! It's been 6 months since he last wrote me, and he's still trying to get in touch w me, WTF?! Get a life buddy, I'M NOT INTERESTED! Who knew a 10 minute conversation would last THIS long?!

Just to share some giggles, the email went a little like this:

“happy new year.. I was going through my inbox and saw this ... whats new? how you been?”

So... he was going through his inbox? Realized i had never written him back because of his crazy behavior and decided to try again, because it's the New Year?! Well, why not? Sounds like a logical idea to me. lol

Beware of online dating people : there are crazies out there!

Leap of faith

Do you ever feel like you're standing on the edge and you don't know what'll happen if you jump?


- Photo by Holly Henri, a 15 year old self taught compulsive photographer, who has quite a lot of talent!

Wow 2011!

Are you like me? Can you believe that it's already 2011?! I still remember the turn of the century like it was yesterday! How much has changed! And how much still remains the same!



I won't lie, 2010 was a tough year for alot of people I love, and therefore also for me. I'm hoping and praying that 2011 is a safe, happy, healthy year for us all. Full of love, and a dose of laughter everyday.

I rang in the new year differently than most years, I had to take care of my sick boyfriend. Wasn't my new years eve if choice, but honestly he makes me happy, so i wouldn't have it any other way. xx look at me being a good girlfriend ;) hehe

So do tell do tell!! How were your parties last night? Did you dance on any tables? Kiss a stranger at midnight? Drink? Party in Vegas?!(Val lol) let me know and I will secretly be jealous that ,for once, it's not me flirting it up at a hot party ;)

Love you all and HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
- Roxy xo