What Fills Your Heart?

I can cry if i want to.

So peeps, yes it's true. Today is my birthday. Same day as the premiere of World Cup 2010. Same weekend as Grand Prix Montreal. But, really. We can all agree that my birthday is the most important out of the bunch. ;)
28 has been a rocky year of mixed emotions (actually, what year hasn't?!), but a truly awesome one. I have reasons to celebrate, reasons to be thankful, reasons to smile, reasons to hug my friends and kiss my godson, reasons to laugh, and reasons to cry.

Tonight, i am celebrating my 29th birthday with my closest friends and my siblings. A year ahead full of hope, health, happiness and love. At least that's what i'm wishing for.

And tonight, we'd better have fun! The planning for this night was a nightmare. I thought i was going to have to cancel, but then, by a strange miracle it got saved by a close colleague of mine. It's weird how things work out sometimes... It just goes to show, that we all just have to stay positive and good things will come!

So, on that note.
Let the good times begin bitches!! xoxo

P.S. no worries, i do indeed have a designated driver to drag me back home when i'm drunk off my ass ;) 

 
Health, love and happiness. 

My 3 & Their Weddings

So, one of my best friends is planning her wedding for next September, and will probably be preggers the morning after. I'm having a blast helping her with anything she needs :)

Wedding planning is REALLY a fun time with a close friend. I've been through it twice in the past and it's some of the fondest memories i hold dear... Wedding dress shopping, invitation designing, paper cutting!! and gluing !! (table placings, thank you cards, invitations), bridesmaid dress shopping (and arguing!), bridal shower planning, bachelorette craziness!, the hair, the makeup and looking super fabulous together :)



This wedding will pretty much wrap up all the “coupling up” of my closest friends. My other 2 best friends got married almost 3 years ago now, both have wonderful houses, dedicated husbands; one has a 17 month yr old (my cutie godson), and the other is beautifully preggers (due this May). I love these 3 girls to death ♥ K,A&J xo

I consider myself sooo lucky to have these chiquitas in my life, among the handful of other super amazing friends i have. I think you get to a point in your life when you realize how lucky you really are to have people around who love you. Who love you for WHO you are. No makeup, no fronting.

They love you on the worst days; when your mascara's running down your face, when you're so plastered you can't put on your own boots, or when all you want to do is call the ex that broke your heart. I don't know what i would do without my friends.

I hope one day, to be planning a wedding of my own... I'm not convinced that's ever going to happen at this point, but “my 3” are, so it gives me hope. I know i will have the best bridesmaids in the world, because they've all gone through the steps. And they also all know that i hate “planning”, so i'll have tons of help there! My awesome sister, who i haven't mentioned in this post because she deserves a post all to herself, will one day be my beautiful maid of honor. And even though she doesn't have the experience yet, of wedding planning, maybe by then she will have! Either way, she knows me in and out, so to have her by my side will be the biggest re-assurance i could ask for.

I consider myself an extremely lucky girl to be a part of these girls lives. And i hope they know how much i love them.

If YOU feel lucky to have great friends in your life, don't forget to tell them. Tell them right now. In person, through a phone call, an email, a text, or in a blog post! Tell them. They deserve to know how amazing they are.

LOVE YOU ALL xox
Thank you Val for always being there for me, for helping me get back on my feet, through all the drama and heartache. For the Godiva chocolates on the days i need a long-distance hug, and for inviting me to TO everytime i need to escape my life! Thank you Julie for being there to heal my broken heart, when i had hurt you more without realizing it...
Thank you Jo for being there and making me get out of bed when i didn't want to go on... Thank you Katie for taking me into your family, cooking me supper, driving me anywhere and everywhere, being there whenever i need a shoulder to cry on, or just some company. Thank you Anastasia&Kiran for being so protective and loving me so much, regardless of my craziness, and making me the Godmother of your amazing child! Thank you James for being a guy that i can trust and lean on when everything seems to go wrong in my day. And for taking care of me the next day when YOU get me plastered the night before!!! Thank you Suli for being able to understand the trials and tribulations of being single! We'll make it through this together! lol

The Car Guy :: Part2

So, if you haven't read my blog post from last week: The Car Guy, read that before you read this so you know the beginning of the story!

From ROXY

Ok, so now that you've done that... you want to know if the guy called, right?!

Well, yes, he texted almost everyday for a week! I was super busy and had plans every night that week, until finally one Friday night i had a few hours free between work and a friends party in the city. So we decided to meet up.

To be honest, the sarcastic tone in his text messages were starting to get irritating. Don't get me wrong: I am a very sarcastic person and appreciate sarcasm in a HUGE way, so for THIS to annoy me said something about his character. Most msgs were poking fun at the fact that i was so busy... And i'm sorry friends, but i'm not about to apologize for having a fabulously fun-filled life! And anyway, i didn't even know him, so why would he become my priority? ...some men think they're God's Gift...

So, as you can tell, i was a little resistant to meet him, and slightly regretting my rash judgment of the previous week, but i agreed to meet him. One date. What could be the harm in that? I called my sister to let her know my plans. I was meeting him at Mt-Royal Beaver Lake for a walk at 7pm. My sister was furious; she felt it was a very unsafe venue considering i had NO idea who this guy was. I realized she was right, so i agreed to her PlanB (since PlanA was to cancel, but i don't like to do that): which was to hide a “wine opener equipped with pocket knife” as a weapon in my purse! I felt silly putting it there, but did it anyway. Couldn't hurt right?

My sister also planned to call everyday 20-30mins and i HAD to answer, or she would come looking for me in the woods. I promised i'd stay at Beaver Lake, and would NOT go in the woods or hike up the mountain with him!

So, the time came and i met him in the parking lot — in our cars— a comfortable place for both of us obviously— to start the date. Everything started off well; a little awkward at first, but soon enough we talked for hours, about life, work, friends, family, hobbies, sports. I found out quickly that he was NOT shy.

But, what was i expecting from a guy who hung out his car window to get my attention?!

He was so up front and brutally honest. He asked lots of personal questions. I usually shy away from being so talkative about my hopes&desires, but he really wanted to know, so i opened up a little more than usual.

From ROXY

Everything was going great. I was answering the phone to my sister who kept calling, like she said she would. Had my best friend checking up on me too. I was surprised no one was spying on me from the other side of the lake! lol Then, as it started to get darker out, and the conversation continued to flow, he said: “Would you mind if i ask you a direct question?”. I laughed and said “Sure”. He'd already been so honest and up front , i didn't think he could ask me anything else too surprising...

He then said: “Can I cook you breakfast in the morning?”

Um.What? I shook my head and rolled my eyes... Why is it when you think things are going well, one comment can just fuck them all up?! OMFG So i turned to him, looked up, and said “No. You're not cooking me breakfast. And you're not seeing me in the morning. Because, i will NOT be with you tonight” He tried to laugh it off, change the subject, and move past it, but i couldn't forget what he had asked me. It's not that i'm a prude, but 'cmon you don't just ASK someone like that. It's one thing if the nights going well, and one thing leads to another, but it's another to book me ahead of time!

So, at this point, i was not impressed, and decided to start steering our walk towards our cars. This date was going downhill quickly in my opinion. Especially since he kept mentioning that he never gets turned down, so he KNOWS that i'll be calling him later. He KNOWS that i'll change my mind. He's simply TOO charming. OMG this guy was a hoot. He was nowhere NEAR as hot as he thought he was! And there was no way in hell i was ever calling him again. I even said, while laughing at him, that i really doubted i would EVER be calling him again. He laughed thinking i was the comedian, but really, the joke was on him. I've never met someone with an ego like his!

I left in my car as quickly as I could, leaving him grinning, thinking i was playing a cute game of cat and mouse. But really, I was SUPER happy to have ended the date when i did, and decided that i would NEVER pull over for someone on the road again.

And , HE was the one who called and texted me later that night, saying “cmon i know you want to...” (a phone call i never answered of course) and for weeks after. I guess he eventually realized that i was being truthful when i said i wouldn't be seeing him ever again. And to this day, I still get random calls from him. I never answer.

The Guy Who Was Married....

So... rewind back to January earlier this year....
I was getting into the swing of this dating site... I was enjoying chatting to numerous guys, all who seemed super interested in meeting the “new” me. I was excited.

So, when my online crush asked me to meet, i could hardly wait! First date butterflies are the best! And this was my first “online” blind date -- a whole different ballgame!

He asked me for brunch, which was totally cute. For safety (yes even at brunch), my (amazing, but protective) sister was determined to have breakfast at the same resto as me. Just to make sure my online date wasn't an online wack-job. lol

He wasn't. I signaled my sister mid-way through the date so that she could leave whenever she felt like it, he was kinda cute. I thought i was lucky, because he seemed nice and sincere and normal...

...then the facebook research started...

And let me just say, that i didn't go out of my way to find out this info! It just fell into my lap with surprising ease. A best bud (no names, no worries chicas) figured out that she knew him from high school, casually mentioned his name to a few of her friends and BAM! Phone call back to me telling me to check my sources and facebook because this guy's MARRIED!

UH, WHAT?!

So, low and behold i nit-picked through his photos and there it was, plain as day, albums and albums that his friends still had posted of HIS wedding day!! He was still tagged in them, and it turned out that the wedding was merely 18months ago! ...strange... there had been no “ex” talk between us, and definitely no “wife”talk.

From ROXY

But, i tried to stay positive, as much as this new found info was surprising, i didn't let it take over our new found connection. I began to ask questions, to hint at things, so that he could open up at his own pace, but nada.

I even checked for tanlines, but there were none!! lol

So, i gathered that either he was in denial about the fact that he was most likely still married or separated and the ring was in a drawer somewhere; OR he just really didn't think it was relevant. Either way, i was beginning to think that he was irrelevant!

3rd date in, weeks later, and this just wasn't going anywhere anyway, so why trudge out this past? We parted ways and i never did ask him directly about his marriage.
Either way, i was now skeptical about how this “in depth” dating site had neglected to get me such vital info !

But i had bought a 3 month membership to the online site, and as my roomates put it — i'd better get my money's worth!!

All about me : Roxy

Hello all Sexy Chicas who are reading my new blog!
I invite you to read the few blog posts I have to get acquainted with me a little bit. I promise i'll get better at writing ;) I sometimes go too fast and forget important details: details you girls would like to know. (Got suggestions? contact me and lmk!)

But for starters, I can tell you a little bit about the real Roxy ;)

From ROXY

I'm 28 years old.... and starting to feel the close-to-30-itch... but at the same time, trying hard not to panic. I grew up, playing with my beautiful Barbies, thinking that by 24 i'd have found the man of my dreams; 25 i'd have the perfect house; 27 the babies will come, and by 30 i would just have the most blissful life.

Ya, no. I learnt quickly that life doesn't work that way.

I've had some pretty serious relationships in the past. First serious boyfriend lasted 3 years. The next one lasted 5 years. We lived together for 2 of those years. I thought moving in together was the most logical option, because i was 22... and i was due soon for my happily ever after right? Wrong. Things didn't work out that way. It ended one dark and gloomy xmas night. Seriously.

Then the dating world opened up to me. I had some funny experiences (we'll get to those), one significant long distance one (VERY long distance: Australia) , had the summer of my life, and in the end, met Mr.Perfect. Or... so i thought. He was everything i wanted in a nutshell, and then it ended abruptly right before our one year mark: with him seeing his ex behind my back and not being ready for the next steps in our relationship. He freaked out. It broke my heart. And thank god i had my friends and my sister to help me out of the gloom&doom. I'm proud to say, that it took a while, but i'm soooo over it.

So, then... that's where all the fun began! I've learnt that you have no idea what life's going to throw at you! It's been a rollercoaster of a year; good dates, bad dates, horrible dates, online dates, phone dates... u name it, i've been there. Heck, tomorrow i have a date in Granby! (no, not at the zoo, but that was my first thought too...lol)

My friends have enjoyed my dating stories so much that they couldn't wait for me to start this blog!! And i hope that all the ppl out there who don't know me personally, will come to enjoy my stories as if you're one of my friends. Feel free to write comments, you're own experiences and stories -- god knows that we've all had them!! You'll feel better knowing that you're not the only one looking for Mr.Right and finding Mr.Wrong all over the place!!

Enjoy the stories chicas and live life to the fullest! xo